He Aha.

Nothing dw.

Religion

The biggest lie in human history.

It has been responsible for more deaths throughout human history than all other unnatural causes combined. For a thousand years the church was a tyrannical dictatorship that used religion to control the uneducated masses. 

Religion is the child of ignorance and fear.

And I no longer am afraid.

Don't you worry.

I won't hurt you.
Don't you worry, you.
Yah I wanted her to love me.
I did everything I could, you see.
I did more than anyone could ever be.
It was like that.
I gave more than ten people put together.
I was a strong force of weather.
But she took a day or two.
And let things distract her.
And contract her, away from me.
She kept telling me, I was the one.
She insisted that no one else could replace me.
And then one day, she replaced me.
I wanted to say, why mai.
Why didn't you want life with me.
Why didn't you just wait for me instead.
Why didn't you love me like I loved you.
Why could't you have just let me have my perfect life with you.
But na. She couldn't.
Or wouldn't.
At least not with me.
Not anymore.
She said she had go.
And then she did.
And here I am, with you.
And don't worry.

I'm calling you, never.

It's just her voice I miss.
I promise it's just her voice.
I don't want her back.
I don't want to kiss her anymore.
I don't want to feel her laying with me.
Against me.
I don't want to hear her laugh or see her cry.
I don't want to.
But if I could just hear her voice one more time.
I wouldn't mind.
I wouldn't be against it.
I would let her talk this time.
I would let her talk and laugh and I would just listen.
And wish that moment could of lasted just a little bit longer than it did.

Outer U'i.

She was like, oh I'm talking to someone else. They are just a friend dw. And then I feel like she is so distant but I keep telling myself, ahh don't worry u'i. Dw she loves you. She wouldn't cheat you. She wouldn't leave you. But na, u'i never listens to me. She ignores me. She only listens to her outer self. Never me, fuck me, she thinks she does. I know, trust me. But between us, all I am to her are confusing feelings. She claims I torment her, she says one day I will ruin her. But I just wish we go away and be free and never come back again and leave it all in the rear view mirror. We could just keep running and never call home and never go back and finally be happy. Just me and u'i and yah leave. Maybe u'i would finally trust me, if it were just me and u'i. But na she will never leave with just me. No matter how hard I try. I will always just be here. On the outer shell.

Remember when.

Remember that time, I tried.
The time I gave it 100.
The time I didn't lie.
The time I meant every word.
The time I actually fell in-love.
When I let my heart get filled.
Remember when I cared.
When I let her in.
When I was finally able to be myself.
When someone actually affected me.
Remember when I wanted someone because she was just amazing.
Remember when I no longer had to pretend.
When I was everything I wanted to be with someone.
Remember the time, she told me she was no longer in-love with me.
How she had leave and didn't want me to wait.
And how she no longer believed in fate.
And that she was sorry she messed anything up.
Remember when my one true love left me.
When she says, she wasn't feeling it anymore.
And when she says.
I love you but goodbye.
And how I can't ask why anymore.
And how my insides feel like they may just die a million times tonight.
And every night for the rest of my nights.
And how I can't go to her anymore.
Because she needs break.
Because she no longer needs me.
And there was nothing I could do.
And then I got my visa.
And remembered when she wanted me to come home to her.
And now I have no where to go.
When I go back to no one and nothing but me.
Always just me.

love list.

art. goodnight.